Hula Hoop Queen

So, since I now have a swimming pool to swim laps in everyday and do water aerobics in, I figured I'd purchase a hula hoop to augment my daily yoga and put some emphasis on my waist. After all the first lady, Michelle Obama does hula hoop. Why shouldn't I?

I figured it was just like riding a bicycle, once you have the distinction balance, you just hop right back on that bike no matter how long it's been and off you go.

WRONG!

I cannot for the life of me twist myself enough to keep the damn thing up. It falls to the ground after one twist. I can only imagine this is what a limp dick feels like to some of the fellas out there. Just can't keep it up.

Well, now I am challenged. I will find the viagra of hula hoop or my name isn't Laurie Handlers!

On My Way

Just completed Bliss and Ecstasy in the woods this past weekend. What courses! They were magnificent. What I can say is that 17 people got free. They got more than they ever imagined according to them. I like it when this happens. What workshop leader wouldn't want to know that? I take such pleasure in fulfilling my life's purpose - freedom, truth, passion and fun.

Last night there was a farewell party for me in Manhattan at Om and Jennifer's place. It was so wonderful to see my friends there. I felt honored and celebrated. AND I was so tired from the weekend that at around 10:30pm after two cosmos, I passed totally out. I mean out cold! Wow! I'm pretty sure that everyone continued to have a good time even though I was flat on my back most likely snoring. Oh well, the down side of fulfilling life's purpose.

So, this week I pack the rest of my belongings and drive off to Phoenix. I hope to be there by cinco de mayo. I will most definitely enjoy my first Margarita in my new home. I am really looking forward to this move.

I plan to relax more, workout at the gym more, do more yoga. spend time walking and hiking, dancing and possibly even returning to running. I know my immortal family will support me in all this. Can't wait.

In addition, I plan to take bio-identical hormones to boost my age regression. More on this when I see the effects on my body.

Rising Phoenix

You know, since Svaroopa a lot has happened in my body. First if all, I have a virtually non-constricted body existence. I hate using that term, but I cannot find another that does not conjure up the negative. It sucks. Pain-free conjures pain. Non-constricted conjures constriction. It bugs me that we inherited this language and it dwells in the negative far more than the positive. Long ago I realized that when I was suffering I could wax poetic. I could go on and on, but when I was happy, there were very few words. Why is this?

Okay so all this to say that I am feeling great both because of the cleanse and the Svapoopa course I took. I wish this on everyone. When I ahve been driving for hours (which I have been lately) I simply get out of the car take a hot bath and then do Svaroopa and I work out all the kinks before I got to be. If they come back in the night, I do it again in the morning and really I am free. I have a freedom of movement in my body that I never had before.

Do I think there's any connection between being physically immortal and being free in my body, you betcha! I feel this way because I now think this way and I take the appropriate actions to feel this way on a continuous basis because everyday I am thinking about moving faster than death.

I closed on my new house last week in Phoenix, AZ. It was such a surprise to me even though I knew what I was doing. I am a happy girl. I cannot wait to be there in my new dream home and to be close to People Unlimited. I am turned on and inspired.

This past month I have been in New York City, Daytona Beach, Ft. Lauderdale and Orlando, Florida, Philadelphia, PA, Woodstock, MD and Washington DC. What a whirlwind. And the amazing thing is that it has all gone so well. People are coming out of the woodwork to support Butterfly Tantra. Students are showing up in places where I cannot predict. Life is an exciting adventure to say the least growing exponentially moment by moment.

Thank you all who have played your part. I could not have done it without you.

So much love...

Svarooooooooooopa!!!!!!!!!!!

Instead of going to an Inaugural Ball, I invested in my body. After all, if I am going to be alive forever, I need to keep my body supple and fabulous! So I went to a five day course in Svaroopa Yoga in Malvern, PA.

I had no idea what to expect except for some of the postures because Krishna has shared them with me often. It's the kind of yoga he is trained in and is in love with. But I must admit I never quite got it.

He would often say that we must do Svaroopa after other exercise, after love making, after yoga for Christ's sake! I did it, but I couldn't get it even though I could feel the benefits.

Well this week, I really got it! Really.

First of all I cannot believe that I got up at 5am every day to go to this course. It started at 7am and went until 9pm each day. Yikes! But that's nothing. I loved the work. I loved the postures. I loved learning to pit others into the postures. Although it's very different from regular Hatha, from Hot yoga, from power yoga, from Ashtanga yoga, it held my interest. Most of all I received benefits from it from the moment we began.

We put ourselves in gentle poses designed to unravel the tailbone and sacrum. Guess what...it all starts and ends there at the tailbone. My whole body responded. It responded quickly. Wow, I was free from pain, free from restriction and opened up completely. Years of strain fell away. How could it be this simple? Blew my mind.

So life affirming. So immortal!

I came away feeling I had grown by a quarter of an inch. That's saying something. Even my back and neck which regularly crack with adjustments would not. These habitual adjustments were not necessary.

I say WOW! Svaroopa is for me. I am going to save my money by not joining a gym.

I plan to devote a show on my radio program Tantra Cafe at www.BBSRadio.com and www.Tantraafe.com to the benefits of Svaroopa. Everyone should know about it. Especially people who want to live fully.

2009 is Bangin' Alive

I am so happy to be alive in this New Year! I am moved to the marrow!

I was in Phoenix/Scottsdale for the holidays. What a time there with my Immortal family! I have never had such a time with so life-positive people. We partied when there were parties and partied in between the parties. I loved my time there. I can't wait to get back there. I started falling in love with the desert.

Wow, what to say? I want people to stay alive. I want the people I know and love to live forever. I believe it's possible, just have to re-program the neurology. Have to give up the death urge, the death programming, the death profit.

I'm passionate about it.

I'm loving life more than ever before.

Goa - Ahhhhhhhhhh!

I absolutely loved my time in Goa. It was so relaxing and wonderful. It’s rare in my life that I do nothing. In Goa, I walk to the beach and back every day. In between I sit on a chase lounge (they call it a bed) and I order fresh lime soda with salt (an Indian specialty). Then I eat tasty treats along with salad. Goa is the only place outside of the Osho Ashram where a Westerner can eat salad.

The water in the Arabian Sea is as warm as a bathtub with small waves. The weather is perfect every single day.

Most people have heard of the scene in Goa; the trance party and drug scene. But I go to Goa for R & R.

I stayed with my dear friends Sirus and Shantana. Their new inn has a pool and is rigged up with a cottage, a dorm and four bamboo huts. I took one of the huts. Loved being in nature.

On Osho’s birthday December 11th and a couple more times we did Kundalini Meditation in their new meditation hall. One time I even did whirling. I had a wonderful time.
Leaving Goa, I felt so happy…I felt rested, loved, taken care of and inspired to return home to create new projects.

A best seller book campaign with the second printing of my book Sex & Happiness. New guests and new shows on Tantra Cafe. A Teacher Training Program for Butterfly Workshops - lots of new stuff. Oh, a second book! And new territories for Butterfly Tantra starting with Phoenix/Scottsdale!

I love the New Year!

Unbreak My Heart

Funny, when we first arrived in India this time for the tour, we all heard the song Unbreak My Heart by Toni Braxton. I don’t particularly care for this song because I feels it implies the ability to heal comes from outside me, like someone should fix me in a certain way. And when people seemed to keep singing it throughout the tour I was not so happy about it. But especially when I kept singing it, when the tune stuck with me like white on rice, I was dismayed. “Unbeak my heart. Say you love me again.”

And so funny is life with quick lessons.

While in the Osho Ashram in Pune, I created a new course for couples. I like it fine. I am happy to have been so inspired by the Nadabrahma Meditation.
And most of all, I am happy to have ended this Heart of India Tour on a high note. I will not do it again. It is retired and so be it.

A couple days ago while on the Deluxe AC Sleeper bus to Goa, I had the most amazing realization. I was pleasantly surprised that the bus was totally new and clean. Plus they supplied, clean linens – pillows, sheets and blankets. And the compartment that contained Krishna and me was large enough for both of us to sleep and to keep our valuables. We slept soundly. Listen, if we wanted we could have joined the “mile low club,” but we did not. We did have enough comfort and privacy, but I did not want to. Possibly because we were both coughing from Pune pollution. But it’s good to note for the next time.

I cannot get over what difference a year or two makes in India. If you are interested to see what my first sleeper bus to Goa experience was like, please go back in the archives of this blog to laugh your ass off at the hysterical time I had then, one of my biggest lessons. It would appear here in January 2006.

So, now we are in Morjim, the most beautiful and quiet part of Goa, settled in to our “luxury” hut along with the frogs and the mosquitoes and the lovely white netting to keep us safe. We eat on the beach and lie on big lounges called “beds” and swim for hours in the Arabian Sea. The connection with my sannayasin friends, Sirus and Shantana is as strong as ever. The love between us can be felt so strongly, it’s tangible.

We celebrated Osho’s birthday with a group of people invited over to my friend’s brand new meditation and music center. We did Kundalini Meditation, listened to an Osho discourse on immortality as fate would have it and then after dinner, we were showered with live sitar, Persian strings and tabla music. Wow, paradise!

So, all this to say that on the bus, I awoke to the “a ha” that this trip has re-reminded me of how much I love India. And the result…my heart has become unbroken. So, this constant signing of a song I don’t even care for has awakened me to the fact that last year my heart was broken on the tour and for weeks after by the people’s reactions to India and me, by their sheer resistance to India and circumstances that probably could not have been avoided. Actually, the circumstances were perfect for whatever those exact people needed to get including me, but certainly not all who attended that tour have even begun to get the lesson as yet. It was a huge lesson for me in surrender and Latihan for which I am grateful and still feel the reverberations in every aspect of my life. You can read about this too in the blog January 2008.

And so returning to India this year against the back drop of the last tour, I have unbroken my heart. “…say you love me again.” I love me again and I love India again. I love me in India again. Such a gift!